need to change.

for the first time ever,
physics aku fail.
really sad.
bajet*

act, when i got the paper n i knew that i just only got 29 in physics, aku hanya tergelak.rase cam nak guling2 kat kelas. then, sya n ayan got the same marks too. lagi la tergelak n peluk dorang. senanye, agk malu la dpt low marks. it is an experience. bcos, aku ta pna lg fail. even D pun x pna dpt, nh tros gedebuk dpt 9G kot. 29 tuh G ke?em, trok tak? tremendously bad. but many people said, relax la, first tyme pun, takpela, standard la physics fail.*thats right!haha.
then, i start thinking seriously. cane nak improve nih?
Allah, help me.

that evening, all the F4 students need to go to the mosque. we dont know what were the activity we need to do. so, i when to the mosque at 2.45pm. ustzh marzilah kate 2.30. tp ramai blek lmbt n tak sempat. ala, when we arrived, we still need to wait at the wing of the mosque.*ayatgile.haha. then at 3 o'clock it began to start. it was a talk about sejarah. when i heard the name of the prog, it looks like a boring prog. INI SEJARAH KITA by alumni. but act, it was really awesom. tak taw la npe, even just simple prog with some slideshow, at that time, aku rase cm bestnye la. rugi sape tak dtg. ttbe terase jahil sbb tak taw sgt sejarah Islam. even penerangan xde la pnjg n terperinci, i think that many input can we get. not only sejarah, but the spiritual of org dulu2. pahlawan2 Islam dan tokoh Islam yg banyak berjuang. terase insaf sbb ceteknye pengetahuan yang aku ade. haish..the most important, bnde tuh cam bina semangat aku. kat org len tak taw la. nk contohi tokoh2 islam dulu. even rase cam tak mampu n mustahil. but nothing mustahil for Allah. so i intend to start work hard in my study. niat sekadar niat. i hope aku akn consistant in doing right things.

kesinambungan dr cite physics td,
i think i CANNOT playing around anymore.
i relise..
need to work hard in smart way.
not just only in study, but in built my iman yg amat2 lemah nih.
sesungguhnya aku insan lemah. selalu sgt lalai dan lupa.
i hope i will do what im intend to do.
study not for exam, but for Islam.
that is our real way as caliph in this world.

but,
im not org yg pandainye secara natural.
yg mcm org2 pndai yg lain.
for me, kalau tak study mmg hampeh la nk dpt bgs.
amalan pun kurang dose pun banyak.
ya Allah ampunilah aku.
Rabbi, show me the way.
i will keep trying n trying.
aku xde kekuatan.
but act,
kita perlu kekuatan untuk berubah. kekuatan takkan dtg dgn sendiri tapi kita sendiri perlu bina kekuatan itu.
aku harap, aku dpt berubah dan ini adalah perubahan yg betul dan betul betul berubah.
insyaAllah..
amin..

shift8: trying to use english language. english aku sgt lemah. nih salah satu care nk improve. kalau salah, harap maap n sile betulkan. tq.